Goals

It's been a while, but I'm back!!

I’m sitting in the new office that we have created in our home. It’s a place where I hope to come and make my dreams come true. I am such a procrastinator and have this fear of failing that it is hard for me to come in here on some days. I know without a doubt that my calling is to write. It’s so weird to know that without a doubt this is what God has called me to do because well, I’m not perfect at it. My grammar is all over the place, but for some reason I have a voice that needs to be heard. So with that I have begun to finally listen. I’m here in this room writing. I have finished my first children’s book that as we speak is being illustrated!! AHHHHH!!! I just want to scream with fear and excitement because I can’t believe this is really happening.

You want to know how this happened. I’m doing the work. I’m writing!!! Has there been days I walked by this room and thought nope not feeling it today? More days than I can count, but when I finally sat down and started working and doing the research it started happening. Who would have thought? Put in the work and see results! LOL I have to remind myself of this everyday. I can sit on my butt, sleep in and turn on a show and veg out, which I do, and then regret. Or I can put my butt in the chair and do the work.

Today for instance, I had plans to go to run club, coffee and then go to the library to write. I did not want to wake up, but with the help of my husband encouraging me I got up. I’m so glad I did. Again, results happen when you actually take action and be around people who encourage you. As I was walking out of the coffee place I told my friends I just wanted to go home instead of the library and they told me to go where there will be the least amount of distractions. Well, I didn’t end up going to the library, but I did lock myself in the office and told my family they were not to distract me for at least two hours. I walked in, opened my laptop, did some work on my children’s book, but then found myself opening a novel I started last year and realized I need to bring that back to life. I realized as I was rereading it, that it had me smiling and crying and it was only 9 pages so far. Maybe God does have bigger plans for me than I thought.

I guess what I’m trying to say today is even when we imperfectly put the work into our lives and goals we will see action. It might take a while because life happens and our insecurities sneak in, but ultimately one day at a time do something that leads you to your dreams and goals. Our lives are too short to constantly live in regret because we want to stay comfortable. I’m learning that I want to be confident in who God made me to be. I can see the confidence growing in me every day, and I want to encourage that confidence to grow. I heard this in a podcast this week and I loved it. “The Great I am is here right now at this moment? How can I miss it?” What am I doing right now to miss it? What is distracting me from seeing him? Too often I have let fear hold me back and I struggle with being so tired of the lies. I want to surrender to a wisdom that is so much bigger than you and I. I need to lean into that!

Let’s do it!

Today’s Prayer

Dear Lord, thank you so much for this life and gifts you have given each and everyone of us. You are there strongly encouraging us to follow our gifts and we are the ones not willing to push back the fear so today I pray you take the fear. That you lift us up to something bigger than us. To the mom who loves to bake, to the writer out there, to the artist who struggles to see how amazing and talented they are. To the math wiz who loves solving problems. To the one who is carrying all the struggles on their shoulders and scared to ask for help. Lord, I ask that you give us peace to know you got us. You are the source of our comfort and help us to lean into you! We love you Lord with all of our hearts. In Jesus name, Amen.

Always Smile, Michelle