Guard your heart

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Proverbs 4:23

So last night I posted a blog about being joyful and fighting all the negative thoughts. After I wrote that I fell asleep for the night. An hour later I woke up with so much anxiety and a little bit of a panic attack. It took me a few minutes to catch my breath and then I had to full-on practice everything I had just written about. I was up for over an hour trying to calm my negative thoughts. I had to call out the lies and replace them with the truth. I took deep breaths. I prayed. I even had to wake up Jason to ask him to go check on Grayson because the noises in the house were adding to my anxiety. He went and checked on him and of course, he was soundly asleep in his bed. I told him what was wrong because in those moments sometimes it helps to tell someone. And it did! He prayed with me and it was so what I needed. He eventually rolled back over and fell asleep and I was staring at the ceiling.

I'm writing this because I feel like I'm not alone. I think Satan tries to bring us down when we are feeling good. The lies we tell ourselves are filled with so much fear and insecurity. I want to be done with these lies!! So today I know is going to be a rough one, but that's ok because I have a Jesus who is fighting for me. I'm going to fill my heart with the truth! I love you all and hope you have a wonderful day.

Always Smile,

Michelle